My doctor started me on some pain medication and after a month of the pain not subsiding, I am now in physical therapy. My first time ever. And it has been an education for me. What I have learned is that the arm pain is "referred" from the shoulder issue. And the shoulder problems have a lot to do with my posture. So, in PT I am learning exercises that don't seem like much at all - but are that are stretching and strengthening my muscles and rotator cuff tendons. I am also applying ice and finally - and most importantly - starting to pay attention.
It seems like it always comes back to paying attention.
- What I realize is that this pain has been with me for a while and I have automatically adapted and dismissed it. I wonder in what other ways I do that with - not just physical - but other kinds of pain.
- What I do now can stresses my shoulder and my posture affects everything - from being on the computer, to watching TV, to driving. New habits can bring new health.
- Healing happens slowly and I can I trust this process. As my Physical Therapist showed me an exercise and I could not do the stretch because of pain, she assured me that I would be able to do that later. Just one step at a time.
So, now I am doing my exercises daily, icing as needed and trying to hold my shoulders back. And working on these behaviors that do not come naturally to me:
- being Mindful of my body
- being Disciplined in care of my body
- trusting in the slow work of healing
Here is a Healing Blessing by Maxine Shonk
May the God of HEALING be with you,
binding and soothing your every wound,
moving your gracefully in a dance of nurturing love
and lulling you back to wholeness and health.
May you be gifted with a healing gentleness and compassion
with which you might touch the lives of others.
May the HEALING God bless you.