Catching UP

The headline is:  MY FACE IS A DIFFERENT COLOR EVERY DAY!

Last Friday John and I were attending the program " Spies, Lies and Algorithms" in Washington, DC  led by the Road's Scholars.  We had already attended several lectures and spent the morning at the Spy Museum.  I was experiencing some "occular migraines" ( a new issue over the past few months) and spent the afternoon resting in bed at the hotel.  I woke up abruptly out of sleep when someone knocked on the door and probably stood up too quickly.  I don't really know what happened except that I fainted and fell hard.  I was not aware of where I was  until I was in the emergency room at Howard University Hospital.

Because of the complications of my ovarian cancer diagnosis they kept me overnight.  I received 7 stitches in my eye which during the last week has grown several shades of red, magenta, violet and deep purple.  The color changes in hue and size above and below my eye.  This has been accompanied by headaches and some dizziness and extreme fatigue.  Not fun.

The good news is that it was a really interesting conference - especially in light of recent events with Nvidia. However,  I not only found myself feeling vulnerable physically but also feeling more vulnerable about espionage in general. There is more going on than meets the eye.  

We are home now and living it day by day.  One of the mantras I live by is :  This too shall pass and I know that it is true.  I know that these physical changes in color on my face represent the healing work of God.  All will be well - EVENTUALLY.  In the meantime, I wait for my body and spirit to catch up where I am now. 

And PS - my numbers on my clinical trial are still going down.  All will be well.