This is the title of something I wrote for a group I am in -" the women who were punched in the face. " I was punched in the face July 4, 2024 with a diagnosis of Ovarian Cancer. Much has changed for me since then. The others in the group have been punched in the face through a sudden illness or an unwanted divorce.
Anyway, we are reading a book by Singer called the Surrender Experiment and it talks about hearing the voice behind the voices. The voice that is love and can guide us in this confusing time of life.
Searching for the Voice behind the voice
I know it and I have heard it
It has spoken when I am arguing with John and it tells me to "Be Quiet"
It has spoken to me at times in church
It has said “Let go”
It has said “ I love you”
It has guided me in my writing where I find myself wondering– who wrote this/
It is coming to me in dreams
It comes in a song that suddenly I am humming
It encourages me to seek silence
Can I be present
Can I be still
Can I wait
Can I trust
Can I have no expectations
Can I stop striving and figuring it out and performing and making meaning out of everything
Breathe –
relax your body –
allow yourself to waste time with no real purpose
Let go
Listen
Be
