Tuesday, November 30, 2021

Perspective

During Advent I hope to write more in this blog and reflect on the scriptures.  The daily lectionary for today has Psalm 90 which speaks to me this morning.

It begins with these words

 Lord, you have been our dwelling place[a]
    in all generations.
Before the mountains were brought forth,
    or ever you had formed the earth and the world,
    from everlasting to everlasting you are God.

 They speak to me of the immense enormity and mystery of God.  God who was and is and always will be.  . Can I ever comprehend God?  The eminent, transcendent God?  The creator of heaven and earth and me?

I more often speak of and experience the "imminent God" - the God within.  The God who loves me as if I were the only one, the God who - I believe - cares about every hair on my head and gives me daily bread and guides me in the living of my life.  

There is contained in this Psalm the notion of time in God's realm and our finite lives.

  For a thousand years in your sight
    are like yesterday when it is past,
    or like a watch in the night.

 The days of our life are seventy years,
    or perhaps eighty, if we are strong;
even then their span[d] is only toil and trouble;
    they are soon gone, and we fly away.

It ends with these words:

Let the favor of the Lord our God be upon us,
    and prosper for us the work of our hands—
    O prosper the work of our hands!

The commentators tell us that this was written during the Babylonian exile when the people were "strangers living in a strange land" - sent their by God because of their disobedience.   I am never sure what to do with that characterization of a punishing God but I do resonate with "strangers living in a strange land."

It is for many people the Christmas season.  It is that for me but also Advent.  A time of spiritual preparation for the coming of Christ into the world again.  What that preparation involves is times of reflection, prayer, worship - centering on this mysterious God who loves the world and us so much.  And entering into all the different aspects of what Advent is.

I have been blessed to live over 70 years and that certainly gives me perspective on the flurry of activity and commerce that pervades our lives in December. Three years ago, as Chuck was dying,  the Christmas tree ceased being just a decoration with family ornaments on it - but a sign to me about the promise of Jesus - that is God with us.  That is we are never alone in our pain.  I trusted that then and I trust it now.

So, this Advent I will ponder the mysteries of the universe and this creating eternal source of life and I will be grateful for the gift of the years I have been given.  AND continue to ask God to prosper the work of my hands - that is my ability to love, give, and serve in that counterculture that is the life of the follower of Jesus.




Monday, November 29, 2021

Advent 2021

 It is here again - this holy season of Advent which I always look forward to.  Yesterday we decorated the church with a hanging of the greens service and John preached about hope.  I told him afterwards that I heard hope in a new way - it is more than an attitude or perspective.  It is an action.

I have always identified myself as a person of hope.  As Chuck was dying three years ago and after he passed away, I always knew I would "get through it."  I didn't know how difficult grieving would be and how it would change so much about my life.  But always I knew - in my head and in my heart.

At the same time, I now see that as  person of hope - I also acted in ways that moved me forward.  It enabled me not to get stuck.  Like reading books on grief, starting work at a church, taking the risk to try a new sport, contacting friends for walking in the morning, fixing up my house, reaching out to neighbors. And writing and crying.  I am a big proponent of crying - and talking about it.  It really helps to get it out!

One of the blessings of working at Gender Road has been my contact with people who are twenty years older than me and living vital lives.  That has helped me to live in hope too.  I am not on the downslide but still moving forward to do more, learn more and be more.

Friday I am having a minor elective surgery that is going to improve my life in the long wrong.  In the short run, it makes me anxious and I have to be living in a dependent state for a while and I have to give up some things that really matter to me - like pickleball.  But I realized yesterday as John preached that the decision to go forward with this is an act of hope.  The hope is that I am going to live longer and better.  And there is more to come.

So, here is an Advent Prayer (from the Dominican Sisters of Peace)  as we look toward the celebration of the birth of Jesus in 2021.  My hope is that my preparation for Christmas this season will bring a new experience of Christmas for me.

God of our Advent longing

Promise and fulfillment of our life's journey

We pray during this sacred season for the gift of hope.

Like a deep root planted within our very being.

teach  us to nourish this growing gift.

When our days become frayed with anxiety,

when our paths become blurred from purpose

When our lives become threadbare of your presence.

It is you, God, our Advent longing

We seek in hope.


Amen

Sunday, November 21, 2021

ThanksGiving and ThanksLiving


 Today at church is our Thanksgiving Sunday.  We are having only one worship service followed by a non traditional Hog Roast Thanksgiving lunch.  It will be a big day and I am sure a lot of fun.

I am up early this morning and find myself reflecting on the weekend in gratitude.  What I have learned is that looking back over a day, a week, a month, a decade is a spiritual practice that - for me - invariably leads to deep gratitude. 

I am part of a group that I call the "Readers and Writers Salon."  Every month we gather to share what we have been reading and to share something that we have written.  This month I took the time to reflect on the process of grief that I have lived through since Chuck passed away.  On Christmas Eve, it will be three years since he died.  In some ways, it feels like it was 6 months ago and in other ways - 6 years ago.

The healing that has occurred in me has certainly been gradual over these years.  I have been blessed to have found a loving community at Gender Road Christian Church as well as a new pack of pickleball buddies in Columbus.  I am also blessed to have been guided through grief with  some wise books and mentors over these years.  My practices of prayer and writing have been invaluable.  It is in reflection that I can see that the big ball of sadness that I lugged around for a long has not altogether gone away, but has certainly diminished.

Today as I look back on just yesterday I see signs of God's love and healing continue in me and in others that I encounter.  In the past two days I have done two reiki treatments on two women in my life.  It is a mystery what happens in these experiences - but there is something about allowing ourselves to receive God's love through relaxation, prayer, music and healing touch that does something.  Somehow in it all I am aware of God's presence, love and peace.  It is an enormous blessing.

I went to a craft fair yesterday with all three daughters and a couple of grandkids and a dear friend.  This is something I usually would NEVER do, but had so much fun. I bought myself a ceramic sponge holder - who knew I needed one?  Actually who knew they even existed?  But I like it. We went out to lunch afterward and I delighted in watching my 16 year old grandson playing "dots" on the children's menus with his 7 year old cousin.  These are the moments that give me deep joy.  

And so, I write this just to encourage others in the spiritual practice of reflection. It enables us to see and feel God's presence again. And leads to happiness and healing.

 I will include an article on "Rummaging through the Day."  Written bys Dennis Hamm, SJ, a Scripture scholar, teaches in the department of theology at Creighton University, Omaha, Nebraska.

A Method: Five Steps

1. Pray for light. Since we are not simply daydreaming or reminiscing but rather looking for some sense of how the Spirit of God is leading us, it only makes sense to pray for some illumination. The goal is not simply memory but graced understanding. That’s a gift from God devoutly to be begged. “Lord, help me understand this blooming, buzzing confusion.”

2. Review the day in thanksgiving. Note how different this is from looking immediately for your sins. Nobody likes to poke around in the memory bank to uncover smallness, weakness, lack of generosity. But everybody likes beautiful gifts, and that is precisely what the past 24 hours contain–gifts of existence, work, relationships, food, challenges. Gratitude is the foundation of our whole relationship with God. So use whatever cues help you to walk through the day from the moment of awakening–even the dreams you recall upon awakening. Walk through the past 24 hours, from hour to hour, from place to place, task to task, person to person, thanking the Lord for every gift you encounter.

3. Review the feelings that surface in the replay of the day. Our feelings, positive and negative, the painful and the pleasing, are clear signals of where the action was during the day. Simply pay attention to any and all of those feelings as they surface, the whole range: delight, boredom, fear, anticipation, resentment, anger, peace, contentment, impatience, desire, hope, regret, shame, uncertainty, compassion, disgust, gratitude, pride, rage, doubt, confidence, admiration, shyness–whatever was there. Some of us may be hesitant to focus on feelings in this over-psychologized age, but I believe that these feelings are the liveliest index to what is happening in our lives. This leads us to the fourth moment:

4. Choose one of those feelings (positive or negative) and pray from it. That is, choose the remembered feeling that most caught your attention. The feeling is a sign that something important was going on. Now simply express spontaneously the prayer that surfaces as you attend to the source of the feeling–praise, petition, contrition, cry for help or healing, whatever.

5. Look toward tomorrow. Using your appointment calendar if that helps, face your immediate future. What feelings surface as you look at the tasks, meetings, and appointments that face you? Fear? Delighted anticipation? Self-doubt? Temptation to procrastinate? Zestful planning? Regret? Weakness? Whatever it is, turn it into prayer–for help, for healing, whatever comes spontaneously. To round off the examen, say the Lord’s Prayer.

A mnemonic for recalling the five points: LT3F (light, thanks, feelings, focus, future).

Do It

Take a few minutes to pray through the past 24 hours, and toward the next 24 hours, with that five-point format.

Consequences

Here are some of the consequences flowing from this kind of prayer:

1. There is always something to pray about. For a person who does this kind of prayer at least once a day, there is never the question: What should I talk to God about? Until you die, you always have a past 24 hours, and you always have some feelings about what’s next.

2. The gratitude moment is worthwhile in itself. “Dedicate yourselves to gratitude,” Paul tells the Colossians. Even if we drift off into slumber after reviewing the gifts of the day, we have praised the Lord.

3. We learn to face the Lord where we are, as we are. There is no other way to be present to God, of course, but we often fool ourselves into thinking that we have to “put on our best face” before we address our God.

4. We learn to respect our feelings. Feelings count. They are morally neutral until we make some choice about acting upon or dealing with them. But if we don’t attend to them, we miss what they have to tell us about the quality of our lives.

5. Praying from feelings, we are liberated from them. An unattended emotion can dominate and manipulate us. Attending to and praying from and about the persons and situations that give rise to the emotions helps us to cease being unwitting slaves of our emotions.

6. We actually find something to bring to confession. That is, we stumble across our sins without making them the primary focus.

7. We can experience an inner healing. People have found that praying about (as opposed to fretting about or denying) feelings leads to a healing of mental life. We probably get a head start on our dreamwork when we do this.

8. This kind of prayer helps us get over our Deism. Deism is belief in a sort of “clock-maker” God, a God who does indeed exist but does not have much, if anything, to do with his people’s ongoing life. The God we have come to know through our Jewish and Christian experience is more present than we usually think.

9. Praying this way is an antidote to the spiritual disease of Pelagianism. Pelagianism was the heresy that approached life with God as a do-it-yourself project (“If at first you don’t succeed…”), whereas a true theology of grace and freedom sees life as response to God’s love (“If today you hear God’s voice…”).

A final thought. How can anyone dare to say that paying attention to felt experience is a listening to the voice of God? On the face of it, it does sound like a dangerous presumption. But, notice, I am not equating memory with the voice of God. I am saying that, if we are to listen for the God who creates and sustains us, we need to take seriously and prayerfully the meeting between the creatures we are and all else that God holds lovingly in existence. That “interface” is the felt experience of my day. It deserves prayerful attention. It is a big part of how we know and respond to God.


Tuesday, November 2, 2021

Novembinge

I listened to a Christian podcast two weeks ago when a minister suggested that he was going to have church read through the gospels in 4 weeks.  He said - you could do it by reading three chapters a week.  I put together a chart in which I saw we could do it - read through the gospels in order.  In other words, first Matthew, then Mark, then Luke, then John.

I brought it to the Bible study group that was currently doing "God casts" and someone suggested reading the four books together concurrently.  So, I put that together and have presented it to the congregation as a challenge.  And I will include it here.

My thinking was - lets do it and see what we learn and how we grow.  Let us see what God is going to do with us when we invest ourselves in this faithful reading.  So, yesterday I started and immediately was blessed by it.  I understood in a new way that Matthew begins with Joseph's perspective and Luke with Mary's and both John is so symbolic.  Anyway, I look forward to doing the readings today.  I have a journal that I just take notes in.  We will see where this will lead!

 

 

NovemBinge!  Binging on the Gospels

November 1  Matthew 1; Luke 1; John 1: 1-15; Mark 1:1

November 2  Luke 2;  Matthew 2

November 3  Matthew 3    John 1: 16-34; Luke 3: 1-18; Mark 1: 2-20

November 4 – Matthew 4; John 1: 35-51; Luke 3: 18-38; Mark 2

November 5  Matthew 5Mark 3;  Luke 4   John 2

November 6   Luke 5;  John 3,4

November 7 Luke 6;   Mark 4; Matthew 6

November 8  Matthew 7;  Luke 7;  Mark 5

November 9 – Luke 8; Matthew 8, 9

November 10 – Luke 9; Matthew 10; Mark 6

November 11 – Luke 10; Matthew 11; John 5

November 12 – Luke 11; Matthew 12; Mark 7

November 13 – Luke 12; Mark 8; Matthew 13

November 14 – Luke 13; Matthew 14; John 6

November 15 – Luke 14; Matthew 15; John 7

November 16 – Luke 15; Matthew 16; John 8

November 17 – Luke 16; Matthew 17; John 9

November 18 – Luke 17; Mark 9; Matthew 18; John 10

November 19 – Luke 18; Matthew 19; John 11

November 20 – Mark 10: John 12; Matthew 20

November 21 – John 13, John 14; Luke 19: 1-27

November 22 – Matthew 21, Mark 11;  Luke 19: 28-48

November 23 – Matthew 22; Mark 12; Luke 20

November 24 – Matthew 23; John 15; John 16

November 25 – Matthew 24; Mark 13; Luke 21

November 26 – Matthew 25; John 17; Mark 14

November 27 – Matthew 26; Luke 22 John 18

November 28 – Matthew 27; Mark 15; Luke 23, John 19

November 29 – John 20, Luke 24: 1-12; Mark 16: 1-8; Matthew 28: 1-10

November 30 – John 21; Luke 24:13-53; Mark 16: 9-20; Matthew 28: 11-20